Big Me vs Mini Me..We're Cool!
As a child, what did you want to become when you grew up? For me, it was a variety of things.
2.Race Car Driver
4.Tractor Trailer Truck Driver lol
9.Film Score person
I wanted to do it all, be it all and then some, but the one that sticks out the most was NOMAD! I'd enjoy the moment, and immediately want to experience and enjoy another moment, somewhere else. A nomad is defined as a person who does not stay long in the same place, a wanderer. I always longed to be somewhere else. I can only imagine the things they enjoyed and experienced as they wandered. I'm sure every experience wasn't favorable but they continue to move in spite of.
Being a Nomad in spirit has allowed me to broaden my mindset, enhance my knowledge of different cultures and there's never a dull moment in my head. It's helped me teach my children to be empathetic, compassionate, loving and open minded when associating with others. It's given them perspective, a love, respect and acceptance for differences among cultures and people. It's made them mini nomads who are fearless in exploration and made me fearless in trying, challenging myself to be, know, overcome things that should have put a pause on my dreaming. It gave me the sense of wherever I am, I belong.
When all was said and done, I am mommy, I drove like a race car driver at times, I taught myself ballet and gymnastics, went out with a trucker a couple of times, I fell deeply in love with Architecture, I became an actress not by career, but by life, I created music scores in my head for each pivotal moment in my life, and some not so pivotal, had the opportunity to model as princess for a day, danced and created dances that I enjoyed but not everyone had a chance to see, and became a nomad in spirit, traveling a bit, friends from all over the world, forever learning and exploring.
When I started this post, it was originally about finding self. Going back to your childhood and looking at what dreams were put by the wayside, and what dreams do you have now that you can work toward achieving. As I continued to write, however, I found that I didn't have as many regrets as I thought I did. I heard once to see the good in everything and that's what I chose to do. Looking back, I experienced everything I said I wanted to be. it may not have been on society's grand scale, but I'm ok with that. I've loved what I lived and the experiences I've had and I'm sure I'll love my future as well.
If you've assessed your life and found that you didn't become who you thought you would be, look again, look at your experiences, look at the good in your past, then move forward with love and acceptance for yourself and continue to evolve.
I am who I wanted to be, still evolving, growing, learning and embracing my nomad life and thought process.